A friend told me that he doesnt like the dots that i use while writing.
So today i am going to write without them.

Sahi ya Galat??????
DDLJ mein raj malhotra ne bola tha
and forgive me if i am not reproducing the exact words

zindagi mein har mod par do raaste hote hain
ek sahi aur ek galat
galat raasta bahut aasaan hota hai
tumhe apni taraf kheechta hai
sahi raasta mushkil hota hai
usmein museebatein aur pareshaaniyaan hoti hain

agar tum galat raaste par chaloge, to bhale shuru mein
tumhe bahut kamiyaabi mile, bahut khushiyaan mile
antt mein tumhari haar hogi
agar tum sahi raaste par chaloge to bhale shuru mein tumhe
kadam kadam par thokdein khani paden, museebaton ka
saamna karna pade, pareshaaniyan ho, lekin
antt mein tumhari jeet hogi!!!!!!

How true is this???????
very very true. at every point in life we always think about the
different paths we can take, the choices we have and then
decide on one. we love to believe that the path we took is right
and that we are not doing anything wrong but thats not always
true.
And who decides whether the path we chose is right or wrong?
We do, since nobody else can decide this for us.
And why is that?
Our choices and
decisions effect us the most, doesnt matter to others in the
long run because they have their life to live.

Now its my turn to remember something my father always told me
The person we lie maximum to is ourselves and if in the end we can
say that we were true to ourselves then we have lived life
successfully!!!!!!

Is gusse ka kya karen????????????
Kyun aata hai itna gussa...............ki humein ache bure ka hosh nahin rehta
nahin samjhta ki kya sahi hai aur kya galat........hum jo bol rahe hain......ya kar
rahe hain.........usse saamne waale ko kitna dukh ho sakta hai.........gussa hamesha
pal bhar ke liye hota hai..................aur agar hum un kuch palon mein apne upar kaboo rakh
sakein.........to gussa khud-b-khud choo mantar ho jaata hai..............lekin yeh sab jaante
hue bhi santulan banaye rakhna mushkil ho jaata hai........kyun.......nahin maloom.....yehi to
baat hai na...........gusse mein dimaag kaam karna band kar deta hai.......................
Lekin agar kisi ki koi baat achi na lage.............ya koi dukh pahonchaye....to kya karo?????
Kya mann ki baat nahin bolni chahiye........................kyun nahin bolni chahiye......balki
mere hisaab se to ussi waqt bol deni chahiye................lekin woh hota hai narrazgi zahir karna
gusse mein hum jis kaaran naraaz hur the woh chod kar baki sab kuch bolte hain............sirf saamne
waale ko dukh dene ke liye.............aur baad mein pachtate bhi hain...............lekin bahut baar der
ho chuki hoti hai..................gusse se hamesha ladai hoti hai..................narazgi zahir karne se baatein
jisse mann bhi halka hota hai................................lekin agar yeh sab baatein samajhti mujhe
to mujhe gussa nahin aata..........................aur aaj bhi mujhe kai baar itna gussa aata hai ki
main kuch bhi bol deti hoon .......ya karti hoon aur baad mein rotii hoon............isliye gussa
kam karne ki koshish shuru!!!!!!!!

How many of us have the guts to challenge tradition, social norms or culture?
Whichever way you put it means the same things.......how many of us dare
to do things differently than what has been done for ages...........actually how many
of us sit down to think why we are doing what we are doing?
Most people dont.............and those who do dont always take a different road.
But what about those who do things the way they want to????
There was a time when i looked down on those who didnt do things that were
supposedly right and should be done. I believed such people were irresponsible,
careless wanderers who would end up with nothing in the end.......who didnt have
anything worthy to do with their lives........who lived for themselves etc etc.
And what do i think today??????
Its not that you have to rebel at all times and force yourself to do things differently,
neither do u have to think about everything........somethings happen mechanically
and need not be thought about at all...................but then there are actions, certain
decisions that are worthy of a thought........and I think those who decide to do things
differently are those who have confidence is themselves, they have the courage to
face the world even if its not with them..........and i certainly respect them.
Its important to take you own decisions at every crucial point in life......and not everything
can be learnt by looking at others.................sometimes you have to take the risk of doing
what you believe in and even if you make a mistake................stand up and start again
makes you a stronger person................and helps you face life better...........because
some day you will have to define things for yourself.......and suddenly you would reach a
point where you wont know what u think in the first place.............just because you have
never thought for yourself................just done what others wanted u too.............u were so busy
being a good child, student, friend etc etc..............that u end up losing your own identity.
There is no black and white........................there is no wrong or right.................and once
u learn to believe in yourself............there is nothing thats impossible!!!!

Mera ek pyaara dost mujhse gussa ho gaya.........nothing serious
......he is too sweet to hold onto things for too long........lekin point hai ki woh gussa
hua............and galti 100% meri hai...........the best part is uske gussa hone par
mai muskura rahi hoon..........kyun??????.............because that was the best moment
of the day for me..................cant even explain how nice it made me feel.......mazak nahin
kar rahi..................we have been friends for six years now.............but he is one of those
people jo jyada emotional bak bak nahin karte...............unlike me ofcourse............jisko
sab kuch bolne ki jaroorat padti hai......................who have suttle but sure means of showing
they care...................and though i always knew that about him .................like there are certain
things he knows about me...................we never acknowledged knowing each other.........aamne saamne
.........jyada confusing ho gaya na...................anyways the bottom line is.........uski naraazgi apnapan
zahir karti hai..........................and thats so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!

Would you cry alone or in front of somebody????
Most of us hate to be alone........and would like a shoulder to
lean on almost always.........except for those times when we want
to be left alone either because we are frustated or too angry to talk.
Then also you would like somebody to come and ask you, agar koi manane
waala na ho to ruthne ka kya fayda?????
I used to do this often with my parents.........unfortunately they never fell for it
and eventually thodi der mein gussa thanda ho jaata aur mai apne aap
unse baat karne chali jaati.............but that was for fun!!!!!
What about those times when u really want to cry.......cry your heart out!!!!!
Again its situational..........there is this one shoulder that we all desire in life...
koi jo tumhare liye ho aur tumhe maloom hai.............then you would most
of the time like him or her to be around...................so that there is someone
.......who wouldnt question you............doesnt want an explanation ......but is there
for u unconditionally..........and the best part is most of the time he/she understands
what u feel without u putting it in words..................................
But what do u do when you are crying not out of sadness but joy..........or maybe
some emotion you cant explain..........a peace of mind.........a feeling that all the
burdens (if u have any) have been lifted from your shoulders..........a feeling that
u have gained more than u have lost..............ek aisa makaam jahan tum haar
kar bhi jeet gaye..............aur mann kare ki akele baithe aur rote jao rote jao.....
aaj mujhe aisa hi kuch mehsoos hua....................aur mann kiya ki akele baithoon..
sitaron se baatein karoon......................aur roti rahoon......................AKELE!!!!!!

I was remembering all the people i have known over the years...
Some of them have been really close......others have been nice friends to hang
out with......and some you just wouldnt get along with.
Every new place you go to................initally the change is unwelcome.......
you miss your old place ....you friends......and a list of other things that
otherwise are small but seem so important at that moment..........
And gradually as you start to get familiar with the new place......there is
excitement...........ironically of a new place......new friends.......and the cycle
continues.......................but the key here is to make new friends and hold on to
the old ones too.......................and the reason i am thinking about it now is that it took
me a very very long time to understand this small little thing................maybe nobody
mattered enough for me to think this...............but i believe i was too blind too see
and too immature to understand.........I have never stayed in the same school or
college for more than four years.............so i was lucky to know loads and loads
of people..........................and how many do i interact with today..............very few
and its not like i didnt have good friends.............i always loved to know people
and there were a few who were very close ...............but then you move to a new place
and its a new life.....new friends and as you get busy in your new world.........the
old one becomes a sweet memory.
All of a sudden i am unable to do this...................i want to hold on to the past more than
my present...............i dont want to let go of it....................i want it to be much more than
a sweet memory.....................i want it to be a part of my present and my future..........
But i guess it doesnt work that way....................life seems to be a book with many chapters
.....you can always go back to reread a chapter..................but you cant change it and neither
can you stop writing further..............................so here i am writing the present chapter in my
book of life and hoping that i dont end up making the same mistakes again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some days are so busy you dont seem to have enough time
and on other days life is so boring you dont know what to do
currently i am in the busy days phase of life with loads of work to do
and a number of friends too.......
And like everyone else i enjoy this phase, always running from one place
to other, doing one thing and then another and then another...........
as they say empty mind is a devil's workshop.......and its only when you
are free that u think about people.......how they behaved ....what they said
...how nobody cares for u........how nobody is there for u etc etc.........
life's too short and precious to waste on such petty things and besides
if u care enough for yourself.........you seldom need anybody else to do
the honors....................hence live life fully and make the best of each day!!!!!

Pyar humko bhi hai��.pyar tumko bhi hai
To yeh kya silsile ho gaye
Bewafa hum nahin bewafa tum nahin
To kyun itne gile ho gaye
Chalte chalte kaise yeh faasle ho gaye
Kya pata kahan hum chale��������.

Is gaane ko sunkar������bahut acha lagta hai
Kabse koshish kar rahi thi apne dil ki baat kehne ki
Aur is gaane ne sab keh diya....


"Hum Kahan Kho Gaye"

Ek din saath chale the hum, is dil mein kayi armaan liye
Kuch kasme tumne khayi thi, kuch vaade the maine kiye
Kasmon-waadon ka woh silsila, kyun toot gaya koi kaise kahe
Poochta hai yeh dil baar baar
Hum kahan kho gaye,
Hum kahan kho gaye?????

Aye dost mere itna to batade, mujhse hain yeh kaise gile
Aisi bhi kya khata hai meri, apne raaste kyun tumne badal diye
saath chalte hue kadmon ke nishaan, kyun mit gaye koi kaise kahe
Poochta hai yeh dil baar baar
Hum kahankho gaye
Hum kahan kho gaye?????

Pyar ki dor se bandhe humtum, dil ka yeh rishta na nibha sake
Ek doosre ke saath ki khatir, apni khwayishon ko na dafna sake
Kacche dhage sa nazuk yeh dil ka rishta, kyun toot gaya koi kaise kahe
Poochta hai yeh dil baar baar
Hum kahan kho gaye
Hum kahan kho gaye?????

Most of the world eats to live.................I belong to a category of people who live to eat!!
Its obviously got a lot to do with my culture.......khana peena itna important hota hai hamare
yahan..........consequently the food is also so tasty...............but i still dont weigh 70kgs or so
just a little over the limit.........but thats not something to talk about
The thing worth talking about is food..............mujhe bachpan se hi different cheezen try karne
ki aadat thi........would throw tantrums for having the same kind of food everyday.........so zidd karti
thi ki bahar jaayenge khane........or woh bhi specific ......kabhi chinese...kabhi mexican...kabhi
thai........kabhi south indian......kabhi continental to kabhi mughlai..............and my mom often said
she should marry me to a chef......roz nayi cheez banakar khilayega........
To top it all I never entered the kitchen...............bhai nahin karta to mai kyun karoon...........jitna kaam
woh karega utna hi mai karoongi..............so my poor mom would do all the work............she had servants
to help her..but somehow she loved doing all the cooking herself................and i would always crib...
yeh acha nahin bana hai.................woh aisa hai................blah blah blah
Ab yaad aata ma ke haath ka khana................the day i had my flight to states.......mom and I sat down
and wrote all the common recipes at the airport.........ek choti si notebook mein jo shaayad maine aaj
tak ek baar kholi hai.................and hold on that doesnt mean i dont cook here.............on the contrary
i love cooking........................jis din mera mood kharab hota hai..............thats what i do.....listen to
music and cook.................i have successfully managed to cook good food for 50 people.............my mom
was shocked.................the look on my dad's face said everything when i cooked a whole meal for him.....
all he said was did u do it yourself................and according to my bro i have become a bhenji..........but its
a fact thats one of the first things i learnt..............cooking and keeping my house clean..........and now
I realise how important it is to appreciate what somebody has made................kyunki khane mein aur kuch
padha hua ho ya nahin...........banane waale ka pyar zaroor hota hai..............basic ingredient thats
absolutely necessary....................so my dearest mom sorry for all those times when i troubled you
...............Today, I would give anything to eat the food you make......love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why do I miss home so much?????
Everybody feels homesick sometime or the other...
Its natural.......thats where you have belonged for as long as
you can remember and suddenly you are unrooted....
You find yourself among people you dont know....a
country you know nothing about and the world is all
of a sudden a very strange place!!!!
But there are other reasons to why I miss home so much
My parents and my brother havent just been my family they have
been my best friends..............
From my first crush to the last mom has known each one of them
without my telling her....she would make it out each time
She never stopped me from doing what i wanted to......just told me what
she thought was right or wrong and i still dont know why i always listened!!!!!
Dad has been the best...........taught me to dream from day one........never forced
anything on me either......I didnt tell him everything myself initially but he always knew
A guy used to like me once and would send me flowers everyday.......
One day the flowers didnt arrive.................dad was the first one to come up with
Kya baat hai aaj tere phool nahin aaye.................while all my other friends couldnt
dream of telling their parents about guys as freinds etc etc .............my friends would come
home freely.................my dad even offered a few guys drinks...................After a point he
has had immense confidence in me.................maybe thats what makes me what i am
today...................and thats the reason i never did things he wouldnt approve of..
Even today what he thinks matters the most!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then my sweet little bro.......kehne ho to ek saal chota hai........lekin baraabar hi hai
or maybe sometimes an older brother..........................he did all the naughty things
and always told me....................his list of endless girlfriends...............first time he smoked
.......first time he drank.......all the pranks he played ..............etc etc etc
I am one of those few lucky sisters...........jinka bhai unko aakar bolta hai
why dont you drink, try this , go out with this one, party late.........................even today
we start fighting as soon as we meet..................considering that we meet once a year
but mujhe kuch ho jaaye to uski jaan nikal jaati hai.............once we were both going somewhere
on the bike and i was riding.....................i hit a small girl who was running across the road
luckily nothing happened to her.............but my foot was bleeding badly.......and there was mob
ready to blame me etc etc.................my dear little brother(who wasnt all that little when this happened)
fought with everybody and took me straight to the hospital...............and then he would sit by my bed
and ask me yeh ladoon, woh ladoon, dard to nahin ho raha.................one of those people who dont show what they feel
often ................but they have their ways of expresisng their love!!!!!!!!
No matter where i go ..................and how much i try..............that is my home and will
always remain that way!!!!!!
Kabhi kabhi jab aisa lagta hai ki mai unse bhi bichad gayi hoon............then i feel absolutely alone
And thats the time when i am scared of this "Big Bad World !!!!!!!!"

Sapne......Khwabon Khayalon ki Duniya.........
Agar har sapna sach ho sakta to kya zindagi aur khoobsurat hoti
Bilkul nahin...........sapnon ki duniya isliye haseen hai.....
kyunki woh sapne hain haqeeqat nahin...........jaise hame khushi
ka ehsaas tabhi isliye hota hai....kyunki hum jaante hai ki gam kya hai
Ek ke bina doosre ka wajoot hi nahin hai...........
Lekin sapnon ka koi matlab hota hai kya........do they say something
A few people have tried to interpret dreams and given different meanings to it
For me dreams are a world I live in for six to eight hours a day
Sometimes its beautiful, sometimes scary.........sometimes emotional
and sometimes very very confusing.
I have had so many different kinds of dreams over the years......
My first crush which lasted six years........was the result of a dream
and a friend who forced me to think about him........and back then
the innocent little girl who belived her prince charming would come
riding on a horse one day, thought this was a message straight from god
that he was the one for me...............never thought of anybody else for
6 years............and dealt with so many different emotions in those years
but never had the guts to say anything to him..........and it always remained
a crush........and he always a simple friend.....................but now i just smile
when i think of those days.
I have had dreams when i have seen my loved ones die.......and woken up crying
and thanking god it was only a dream...............two people i was very scared of losing
were my dad and my best friend.................i would always dream of dad when he wasnt well
and would just suffocate even in my dreams..........and this one time i dreamt my best friend
had an accident while he was on his way back after meeting me one day..........and thats it
he was gone....................i had hugged him so tight the next day.............he didnt know what
had got into me....
And then there were times when i dreamt about chocolates and fairies, dreams when i am trying to
run but couldnt move, trying to slap someone but dont have the strength to move my hands...
I have even seen God in my dreams..................and they say its good omen....God alone knows
All said and done....................I love my world of dreams..............gone are the times when i used
to look for meanings in my dreams..........its just a world i like to go into every night.........where
i can do and see things i wouldnt think of doing otherwise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Key to a successful relationship?????
Its different for every relationship..........
One of those things that cannot be generalized...........
But certain aspects are common to all relationships.......and by
relationshps i mean every kind of relationship in life................most often the reason
for the failure of a relationship is expectations and/or possessiveness.......
And the irony is these feelings also define how close you are to a person.....................
Like most things in life its about attaining the right balance, between making somebody feel
special and wanted on one hand and not trying to suffocate that person with your demands on
the other.....................Love is best when its unconditional.
A friend of mine often says..................I will never hold your hand and show you the way.......
but i will walk by your side to prevent you from falling!!!
But then again....................we are all human...................and though these things can be
explained to the mind.................................the heart never listens.........................and thats the
reason some things are easy to understand but very difficult to practice!!!!!!!

According to most people its a beautiful day because its sunny......
but for me its beautiful when its cloudy..........and it rains and you get wet
Thats a beautiful day!!!!!.......................aur phir saath mein pakode hon, chutni ho,
chai ho..........to maza hi kuch aur hai!!!!!! Actually i have seen the sun after so many days
that even this feels good........though my head starts paining................
america aakar nazook ho gayi hoon shaayad(hehhehehehhehe).......
I saw DDLJ and Bombay last nite......................i just love DDLJ ..........
can talk endlessly about how i feel when i watch that movie..........
dont want to get into that................and then there is
Bombay...........................and that brings up a very hot topic........................
.is that hatred justified.. Its so tough to watch all that violence on screen ,
I wonder what those people went through in reality.....
personally i believed that the present educated generation would know better than to pay heed to such
irrelevant issues.....................but i am wrong and i know that because i have friends who believe that
because nearly 500 years back somebody destroyed a temple .......
so we have the right to destroy a masjid today or
vice versa...............doesnt make sense to me................never has and never will..........
but its sad people still try and justify their actions with such reasons.............
or these so called reasons are the basis for those actions in the first place.

Love......Marriage..........Is there any relation between the two?????
Time and again I have seen unsuccessful love affairs......
thats the best way i can put it..............people spend years together...understanding each other
......fighting ...caring .......loving........sharing........emoting in so many different ways
And then comes the time to get married..........and unfortunately in most cases thats the first time you
see the dirty face of practicality!!!!!!!!!
Does it matter.........is being practical so important......from what i have learnt till date
(and this mite change with time)being practical is of utmost importance in a lifetime decision..........
tum us har insaan se pyar kare ho jiske kareeb hote ho..
But its sooooooooo difficult to truly respect somebody....................to adjust
..............to change your life for somebody
Two of my closest friends who had been together for 9 years
...............separated.......the girl a muslim and the guy a marwari....
No matter how much they tried to convince their families......................it didnt seem to be working out......
When she asked me what she should do(and this was 3 years back)..........I didnt know what to say........
They were perfect for each other.........but they loved their families too..................
I told her if i were in your place i would marry only if my parents
agreed and i knew the two families were going to get along in the long run.................
The irony is..........................when i told my father that my friend had got engaged.......the first thing he said was
thats bad...................why didnt they run away and get married................................and i was telling him..........
.ma baap mi marzi ke khilaaf jaana itna aasaan nahin hota..............isnt he sweet......................................
But the words that have always stuck with me(and thats probably because i am a major hindi movies fan) are:
"Apnon se bhaag kar hum jaayenge to bhi kahan jaayenge"
and the words that i told my dad were from a very old song
" Chod de saari duniya kisi ke liye.........yeh munaasib nahin aadmi ke liye
Pyar se bhi jaroori kai kaam hain...........pyar sab kuch nahin zindagi ke liye!!!"
I am still waiting to meet someone where i would have to make such a decision
and i would be convinced to leave everything!!!!

Ek dost jo tumhara har raaz jaanta ho...
Tumhare dil ki har awaaz pehchanta ho.....
Kahin kho jaaye.......tumse door ho jaaye...
To kaisa mehsoos hota hai!!!!!!!

Jiske bina sochne ki aadat hi na rahi ho....
Jab har soo nazar aata bas wohi ho....
Kahin kho jaaye.......tumse door ho jaaye..
To kaisa mehsoos hota hai!!!!!!

Jab khud mein tum uski parchayi dekhne lago..
Jab uski tarhen sochne ki aadat ho gayi ho....
Kahin kho jaaye......tumse door ho jaaye...
To kaisa mehsoos hota hai!!!!

Apni haar aur nakamiyaabiyon ka ehsaas hota hai...
Aaine mein apna chehra sabse bura lagne lagta hai....
Dil ke andar jhaakne se darr lagta hai..........
Kaise bayaan karoon shabdon mein kaisa mehsoos hota hai.......................

Khud ki duniya mein agar andhera ho.....
To doosron ki duniya ko kaise roshan karo....
Jab khud par se hi bharosa uth jaaye.....
To kaise kisi aur par bharosa karo........
Phir bhi mai koshish kar rahi hoon....aur hameshaa karti rahoongi!!!!!!!!

Dil ki is duniya ko bayaan karne ki jaroorat nahin thi pehle
Bahut waqt baad maine jazbaaton ko shabdon ka roop diya hai
Khushiyon aur gamon ke is lambe safar ko..
Yaadein bana kar rakhoongi........hameshaa ke liye!!!!!!

Just reminds me of one of my fav songs......
" Its only words and words are all I have...."