Hum....................Tum

Kisliye......ladkiyaan ladkon si nahin hoti........
Ek gaane mein kitne pyar se......saare differences outline ho gaye hain...........
But when I think about it..........I am confused whether I behave like a "girl" or no.......

8-10 yrs back......when I had a group of girlfriends......when I would gossip......when guys I met never became friends.................when I read M&B.........when I dreamt......believed and lived for the feeling.......
Oh mere sapnon ke saudagar......tujhko mujhse hai pyar agar.....to chal mere sang chal....aaaa
mujhe aisi jageh leja.....
Aa mere sapnon ke saudagar mujhe aisi jageh le jao...
Main chahti hoon...mere humsafar...mujhe pariyon ki duniya dikhao...
Pyar hi pyar ho jis jageh mujhe aisa jahan dikhao......

Ab 10 saal beet chuke hain....................aaj mere saare dost ladke hain........aaj mujhe gossip karne ka time nahin milta.........aaj mujhe taarikein yaad rakhna bachpana lagta hai.........aaj mere sapnon ka rajkumar......sapnon mein bhi nahin aata..........
Jaane kyun phir bhi....kabhi kabhi.....main us mod par pahonch jaati hoon jahan main phir sapne dekhne lagti hoon.........aur phir sochti hoon...

Mujhse mahobbat ka ikraar karta......kaash koi ladka mujhe pyar karta.....
meri maang mein chaand taare sajata...jo main rooth jaati mujhe woh manata....
haalat meri woh jaanta....dhadkan meri pehchaanta......
apni bhi chahat ka ikraar karta.........kaash koi ladka mujhe pyar karta!!!

ab agar tum rootho.....aur koi manaaye hi nahin....to roothne mein kya maza hai....
agar tum zid karo.......aur koi samjhaaye hi nahin......to aisi zid mein kya rakha hai....
agar khushiyaan aur gam....baatein na jaayein...............to jeene ka maza kya hai.....

Aur phir mujhe lagta hai.........ki chahein mere dost ladke hain.........chaahein meri baatein pehle se practical aur logical ho gayi hain.........lekin phir bhi meri sapnon aur khayalon ki duniya mein.......main aaj bhi 10 saal peeche hoon.......

Aaj bhi main movies dekhte hue....rone lagti hoon........
Gaane sunkar senti ho jaati hoon...............
Baithe baithe sochne lagti hoon..............
Aur kehti hoon..............isliye ladkiyaan ladkon si nahin hoti !!!!

Swimming against the Tide....

Recently I have read a few "intelligent" articles.........concerned with politics, population, environment and religion...........
These dont have the heart to add emotions to statistics gathered from various sources.......but they have a keen mind to analyse and present trends that I am completely unaware of........goes without saying I enjoy reading these as much as I enjoy reading emotions and feelings of the complex creature..............
One such article I read was about Mother Teresa.......a woman I always believed to be a true saint.....a person who gave her life to the well being of mankind.......and that too in my country India !!!!............and after reading the article I was forced to ask myself....."What makes me believe she is a saint.....????"
What did I know about her....or her work....or her seva ashrams.......her connections.......etc etc ....
The truth is I knew almost nothing........I had put her on the alter of sainthood just because the media had put her there and I had blindly followed what I heard like a fool........an educated fool like millions before me ....with me and after me......
Do we question what we hear....read .....as scientists.....and engineers specially.......we are taught to question what we see or do.......to find a logical explanation for it.........why does this sense of responsibility elude us when we read gossip columns......news.......biographies or autobiographies........etc......
I have lived in and continue living in a world full of misconceptions.........initially those that we have inherited from our parents and grandparents........notthat they intended any harm on their part......they were always trying to inculcate our cultural values in us......a heritage we are all proud of........but often blindfolded.......we believe without questioning........and most of us havent had the courage to flow against the tide..........not necessary we have to.........we could flow with it if thats what we agree with.........based on our respective analysis of situation........and trends and not follow the herd............again blindfolded !!!!
I have digressed from what I wanted to talk about.....coming back to Mother Teresa.........one side there is most of the world............who respects her....if not prays to her........atleast looks up to a woman of her stature...........
On the other hand are these people who think of her as a manipulative shrewd women ........who used to poor for her success......something she undoubtedly managed to do......................
The question is whats true and whats not...................as always its difficult to answer this question based on other's arguments......again a passive observer making judgement based on others views................anyways I decided to read these views...........look at both sides of the coin.......I have read part of the negative and am about to read the positive now........try and search back articles and details I can lay my hand on.............but I am forced to admit I am already inclined towards the negative..........there is enough reason for me to support them.........
How does it make a difference to me.........why should I bother..........frankly it doesnt...............neither am I geared to become a saint...........or work for the better of mankind.......I most probably will end up being another selfish individual living only for myself and my family....................but i want to make sure I dont pass on a heritage of individuals defining their lives on misconceptions........superstitious beliefs..........in short blindfolded human beings !!!!!